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Saturday, March 19, 2005
#-#-# m a m b o c r a z e #-#-#
#-#-# M a m b o C r a z e #-#-#
YeaH~ Its Wed nitez again! Which means its Zouk's Ladies nite and Mambo nite!!!! Hahahaz` lolz~ Starting to like Mambo a little....though i admit i didn't realli like it veri much when i first knew it....Used to tink its realli retard...in fact now i still tink so...Haha~ but its realli fun in the sense tat no wan actually care abt how they look but juz dance like nobody's business~ haha~ tats how i call enjoying to juz the music and dance manz~Heheh~
Aniwae, tis time's more special.....more ppl go...so more fun.... At least for ppl people I know....got the usual like Weijie, Fish, more importantly got Becky darling, Vanessa and Gary!!!! Saw many other ppl there too....Gerrie and others...Hsien Zhuan and Yong Shen called mi to tell mi they are there but did not get to find them in the crowd..nevermind...not fated....Hehehe~ Didn't drink much cos dun wan to get too high~ (Anyway i realised tat alcohol dun haf much effect on mi lehz....i dun get higher even when I drink more...I tink im naturally immuned to alcohol liaoz...so dun worry of mi getting drank yea~)
Haha~ aniwae its super crowded...and like Shin's party....a lot of guys...tink cos the Guys POP break not over yet ba~ YuckS~ But the music was nice all nite~ Went over to Phuture for a while but it was soooo super crowded there.....tuna sardine packed manz.....get pushed arnd everywhere....R&B and Hip Hop was great....but since I promised Wei jie to support him for the last time....I stayed at Zouk instead...
Aniwae Mambo songs are slowly getting into me....Like kind of getting into the reto-ness.... I tink one thing nice tis time was that most ppl are following the actions~ Not like last time oni veri few ppl follow....now...realli like doing mass dance manz! Jie yu and Weijie went up the podium!!! Hahah~ So proud of them~ Uncle Wei jie and Uncle Fish~ lolz! Shld haf bought Ribena for them~ hahha...Mi and Becks Caught an eye-candy...hehe~ tis guy in brown Billabong cap... Gary kept counting the no. of times we turn back to look at him~ Argh~ Fish came at the wrong time to pull us nearer to the podium....make us lose sight of our eye-candy....Argh Argh~
Becks and mi came out with the conclusion that Wei jie look veri cute when he's doing Mambo...as in ke-ai..hahah~ like so enjoyable like tat...lolz~ Yoz ~ dude~ U can become symbol for Mambo liaoz siaz~
Aniwae all was fine until some stupid guy in white cap came dancing so close to mi, I came feel his breathe on mi...Sux! Another touchy idiot...even if its juz putting his hands on my waist~ Screw off manz! Changed place with Gary~ Told Wei jie abt it and he almost went to fight him.....Chill dude...Im pissed off....but dun haf to blow up the matter...I dun wan to create more trouble....
Aniwae the nite ended off quite well...Gary went supper wif Becks and Van while I share cab home wif Fish and Weijie....
Tink tis gonne b one of my veri last time clubbing after so many unhappy incidents recently.... Muz wait till tis bad omen around mi goes off first...Geez.....lalalal~ Will I b able to resist temptation? Mayb...Mayb not...hahah`Stay tune.....(Hehz?!)
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Saturday, March 19, 2005
Friday, March 18, 2005
council sentosa outing!
****** Council sentosa outing ******
Boo! Council outing again!!! Went sentosa 2dae all my my council dudes and babes! Hahah~ Love the sun sand sea!!!!!! Though the sand was a bit too scouching though...burnt my poor little soles while playing volleball~ Haha~ but ultimately it was fun~ though not many ppl turn up....but it was realli fun 2dae! Everything! from hiding behind the shadow of the rock, to them trying to pull mi into water (argH!), to burying Clarx in the sand... to playing extreme Captain's Ball in the water~ hahaha~ all so fun!!! Shows tat the quantity of ppl doesn't matter, small groups can have veri gd fun too! Heheh~ lalalalal
Saw Darius and friends at the beach too~ Wanted to share court with them....but before we could...some kuku official came to dismantle and shift the court away~ Dotz!!! Never knew courts have legs and can move~ Argh~
Hahah~ ended off the day by going Sakae Sushi for buffet at Funan~ I tink i was too tired from eating ....so still....wadever i ate did not make my buffet worth it~ Haiz....muz train myself to eat more....if not not worth it!!!!Waste money!!!~ Shld haf eaten Ala-carte like Junhui.... The dinner was fun too!!! hehe~ with all the teasing Feli abt she and her Alvin~ Haiz~ Wonder how long they will last...nevertheless~ Go girl~ All the best in ur new found relationship....hahah~ oh no~ the single's club is getting smaller......also means lesser ppl to go clubbing with...hahaha (oopse!)
Took 147 home wif kok and Ray.....sux....went past Selegie Road area...Hate taking tat bus on a friday or weekend evening.....Juz feel so unsafe when u see the workers gathering in flocks manz....not being racist or wadever...but seriously...its scarey...especially sometimes when they stare at u or wadever....EeKS~
okaez....Tired....Nitz~~ZzzzZZZZZ
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Friday, March 18, 2005
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
-Shin's bdae party at Penthouse-
-Shin's bdae party @ Penthouse-
Boo~ Shin's bdae party @penthouse!! Happi Birthdae Honey~ Hehehe~ 5th Year anniversary that u r my honey liaoz...as old as my husband-wife status wif Jianing~ haha~ luv Ya lots! *mUaCks* WisH ya Happi 19th Bdae and stay pretty always...although I noe ur bdae's like stll a fews days later~ YEA~ *MuAckS*
Aniwae first time go Penthouse. Hehz~ Promised Shin to get as many people down as possible....But in the end so many people PS...Raf, SAndy etc etc etc...Mayb cos its a Mon and everyone's working ba~ So went with council clubbers instead~ haha called ita council clubber's outing...Hehe~ See~ im not the oni clubber in council kaez~ So dun always suan mi aoni!! Mi, Feli, Fish, Vegus, Febri and Febri's Friends: Kenny, Temmy and Ronald went.Wadever and huever they are, I oni wanted to enjoy one nice night of dance and music~
Kaez...went a bit too early...so the club was practically empty and boring....so we juz sat arnd~ The place was quite nice larz....got tanks of fish and jellyfish and stuffs...Haha~ got a fish squashed by a stone in the tank tat Feli was so paranoid abt..ask the waiter to save the fish somemore~ hahah~
In general, the music was nice, the palce was nice! but the crowd definately sux~Super long never go for R&B and Hip hop liaoz....Miss those bass beats to dance to.....Haix~ the party was like a total guy's party larz! As in the guy:gal ratio might b like 10:1! Might b gd for some girls manz, but definately not for mi larz! Hu cares a damm abt guys! if mi 1 pure-girls party Ican enjoy it juz as much` mayb better!
Gosh! Was totally surrounded by guys on the dancefloor, luckily Feli went, if not im dead! And all thanx to some bloody touchy idiot, pls lorz...im there for nice clean fun~ If u wan to dance....im fine, but pls respect mi by not getting over touchy~ *SLAP* Bad experience~ And guys~ pls...if u wan to noe a girl...pls work on ur pick-up lines and wad u do... dirty dances and putting ur hands around people doesn't work for all girls~ AT least for mi!
Kaez...then Feli had to leave early...wanted to leave and share cab with her...but promised to stay to give Shin face... Haix....fine...Aniwae thanx to Febri and Fish for protecting mi the nite through from tat touchy guy and for helping to pull mi out of situations i can't get out of...Yea~ Gd to go club oni with guys u noe ucan trust.
Kaez...in general the nite was fine if not for the little bad experience I had~ BLarz~
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Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Monday, March 14, 2005
NTU Open House
[[[[[[[[[ NTU Open House ]]]]]]]]]
Boo~ 2dae's NTU's turn!!! Hahaha~ after NUS yesterday, 2dae still go NTU. Go so many open house, as if it will make any difference to my ability to get admitted. Kaez...after yesterday, realises tat open houses are actually quite useless...yar..but went 2dae purely because I want to check out on School of Arts,Media and Design. I want to get into this school....cos its like one of the method for mi to go into advertising design other then to go laselle...haix....
Kaez...same thing as yesterday~ saw many people again~ not as many as yesterday though...proves that NUS is a more popular sch?? Haha~ as usual, saw Yew loong and Yit Wen more then one time there manz...DUdes...pls dunsae that Im stalking urall or wadever kaez....Im not interested in u guys~ Haha~
Aniwae, NTU's style of open house is rather different then NUS, mayb cos they alreadi had mani talks before that, so it was more of like a exhibition style. Checked out on the SADM and Psychology. Psychology wasn't so bad...in fact i tink its better then in NUS. Cos its direct Major into psychology, but in NUS, muz go through one year of general studies first before can bid for psychology in 2nd year, which i heard was difficult~ Blarz~ with my calibre~ veri risky in NUS. Haix~ wadever the case is, its not up to mi to choose lar...they want mi i should thank God readi...
Yea~ for SADM, Haix...Sad and disappointed.As usual, they are like Laselle, need portfolio interview and need to hand in work pieces...not that i can't work at producing some works for the admission,(in fact i've been thinking abt what to do for days and nights...), but seriously i believe if i produce works for the sake of producing at such situation im in now ,its realli gonna produce works of no quality. Haix....saw some people at the booth..Poh ling they all...all AEP wanz....how to go and compete with them? Pls manz....Gonna know my own calibre.....Morever, although i myself noe veri well, I WAN TO DO ADVERTSING DESIGN as a career and Im realli interested in it....but everyone is telling mi that its not for mi..... Im shunt b living in juz wad i wan to do and in my dreams cos its realli for people out there with the real talent. ( yar tat includes my parents and many of my friends), how encouraging it is in asking mi to persude wad I like and believe in...Haix~ Wadever it is larz....i guess its juz gonna b another lost dreams like many others....
Frankly speaking..i dunno how exactly my standard is at all the designs stuffs. I oni noe I can spend all my time juz working on designs and stuff...changing and editing designs again and again until im truely satisfied. Tats juz some kind of attitude I can't find when im doing other stuff...I dunno y. And im not veri convinced in myself tat I can't make it in the designing areana simply bcos I tink im juz not given the chance to see my own standard in any way. I realli regrade not taking Arts Elective in sec3 and then to AEP in JC. Tats all juz bcos my mum is against mi spending time on arts and designs and stuffs...so disallow mi to do them last time. My mum juz feels that arts is not for ppl like mi and since no one in the family has been arty-inclined before, I WUNT be able to make it....so y waste time and money...Haix~ I regret! I regret to so many wrong decisions that i've made last time! I regret not pushing hard enough and for listening to my mum to not take art in sec3 . I should haf been more firm in wad i like to do...not wad my mum tinks I shlf fouces on!!! And regret taking my JC subject combi just because everyone tells mi that is the more practical combi to take and not choosing but wad i beliee i liek to study...Haix~ Full of regrets~
Haix~ I hate this....somehow, I can't help it but i hate my mum for always influencing my decisions. Y does she always haf to listen to others in wad is good for mi, rather then asking mi wad i realli want?!? Like juz bcos some aunties say that their daugters do tis and tat and acheive tis and tat....then i muz follow suit and acheive wad they acheive~ Then when come to making decisions, she will ask mi to make my own decisions, at the same time corner and influence mi towards wad she has decided for mi~ Isn't tat contridicting?!?
I can't help tis negative feeling~ but im realli full of regrets now! Mayb i will get over it but I noe its a regret that has changed my whole life somehow. At least if i've tried b4 and prove to myself that I can't make it...I wunt haf feel tis bad...
Im realli gonna earn hard to send my bro to NAFA School of Young Talent as much as I can. I want him to develop in what he is good at and what he enjoys doing. I dun wan him to regret next time like I did now.....Its a horrible feeling....
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Monday, March 14, 2005
Sunday, March 13, 2005
---- day of lost dreams------
---- day of lost dreams------
Woahz.... veri late liaoz....im veri tired now....been out for the whole day....
Morning went NUS open house.....so mani ppl went.....I noe i don't realli stand much chance of getting into tat sch but nevertheless...juz go there see see and blindly look for hopes lorz....ooooohz.....went wif the councillors.....Miss everyone. First time mani councillors go for the same thing together..mayb cos it concern everyone's future ba~Saw mani ppl there too....mani long time no see ppl....and mani that I've missed for long...First saw Xiaoxuan the moment i step out of the cab.....then I saw Jieli and Hongyao....gosh~ so long never see tis two guys....they look so different now....then while walking in....also saw mani ppl.....some oni recognised by looks but did not manage to sae Hi....some juz Hi-Bye~ Then saw Lihui and her dear JX....then in the exhibition hall even worse.....I spent more time saeing and toking to ppl than looking at the booths....Saw mani long-time no see darlings like Zhiqi, Daryl, Huifen, Sijia, Gerrie, Vanessa, Minlin etc etc etc etc....not forgeting the guys.....Kelvin, Yewloong, Yit wen, King Wai, Gerrie's bf(can't remeber name)...and mani mani mani more that I juz said Hi-bye too....Haiz.....hope can get into the same school as everyone manz...I miss everyone.....be it for gd times and bad....
Yea~ Checked out more on Law and Arts and Social Science....the Law wanz....they sae look more at GP and interview oni....but i bet wif my results I will hardly get ani chance even to get in for the interview....then the FASS, toked to one of the professor....He said mine is those borderline caes....can try for discretion but no promise of getting in also....haiz.....everything is so unconfirm...tink i juz gonna apply for everything....but tink i still wunt get a peaceful mind wanz....NEverthelss, 2mr gonna check out on NTU then I make my decisions.....
Then went Junhui's house for steamboat...A lot of councillors turned uo tis time.....so fun...so long never get together liaoz....got a lot of rear appearances somemore......Mooooz~ I miss everyone~ though I didn't eat much and im hungry now....I still like the feeling of hanging arnd councillors~ It juz feels so gd to b together again`Yea~
okaez....tired liaoz.....Shall go sleep....2mr going jogging arnd the estate wif junmin b4 going NTU open house....recently had tis fetish to go do sports and excercise out...mayb to vent my emotions ba~hope and pray hard tat my knees can take it~ and i hope i wunt get too tired .....ciaoz......*mUacKs* everyone~!
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Sunday, March 13, 2005
Friday, March 11, 2005
||||| c o n f u s i o n s |||||
c o n f u s i o n s
blarz....tis's the 3rd consecative day tat I never go for work...didn't feel like working....gave myself the excuss that I've got lots of things to do and tink abt and I needed more time to myself....but actually i tink its crap. Didn't accomplish anithink...neither did i come up wif ani decisions yet...haiz....WAD AM I DOING!!!! wad a lousy working attitude I haf manz....even my mum's complaining...*slap* myself...Tink im juz sick of the job liaoz...though its gd in everyway...i tink i juz wan to try something else....or mayb the depression im in now juz wan to escape the past to a brand new life.
Haiz....mayb its like wad becky saes 'teenage crisis'....been so easily irritated recently...dun even seem to haf interest in anitink. Went zouk with weijie,jieyu, chieh and jieyu's friends..and other ppl...though the music was gd...somehow i didn't enjoy it...was in such a grumpy mood....drank like 2 apple shooters and 1 corona extra tinking tat it would made mi high and get happier but didn't work....got irritated wif everything tat comes in my way including tis *ass who was dancing like the whole floor was his...*yucks* so sick when his sweaty shirt touch mi.*toot* everything builds up the 'piss-off attitude ' in mi like oil to fire manz....even the dry ice spry tat I like got mi irritated instead. Poor weijie happened to spark off the fire and I flare up at him. Sorrie dude~ didn't meant to, juz happened to b the wrong timing.
Gosh~ I tink my work is piling up. Especially all the voluntary work like all theJunior Y's Men stuff, bishan Home stuff, coming up captain's ball launch stuff, Vmob, even YV....so mani things tat i noe i need to settle but juz seemed like im not doing anitink. I need to find back some efficiency manz.....Haiz....was juz so in no mood to do anitink...at tis attitude tat im going, realli questions myself my ability to take up the YV05 chair manz....dun wan to screw things up animore....
kaez...i muz hang on......muz perserve on.I noe I like wad im doing juz not at the right time and situation. Gotta pick myself up real soon. Remeber when I first attended YV, there was tis analogy tat volunteering is like running a marathon, its gonna b veri tiring, so much tat u feel like giving up...but definately I will see the end....I muz go on...cos i noe ultimately, I'll b able to see tat I can make a difference, big or small' to somewan. I wan to see the smiles on the faces.....tat shall keep mi going...................
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Friday, March 11, 2005
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
-quizes-
-= Self-theraphy=-
okaez.....im on leave again......decided to take some breaks to do oni things that I like.....some form of therapy on myself...haha~ okaez....do some funni quizes for fun .....
You are the Spirit of Innocence. Always with the
sweet smile of a child, you know how to have
good clean fun, you have a natural vunerability
about you, which makes you able to make friends
very well, as they are drawn instinctively by
the urge to protect you. But even though you
look as fragile as a child inside you are very
strong with your easy look on life. When you
get a partner (because there is no way you
cant!) your life will be perfect.
Which stunning spirit of emotion are you? NEW AND IMPROVED! (amazingly beautiful anime pics!)
Cocktail
?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??
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The Goddess of Magic and Peace. You are a born
star. Always supportive and influential, you
the centre of attention and you are
exceptionally friendly. You are a classic
beauty.
Which gorgeous goddess are you? For girls! (breath taking pics!)
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Your label is the Nice girl/guy. You tend to care
for others over yourself. However, many people
appreciate your caring side and would rather
stick by you than hurt you. But, there is a
downside. Some tend to abuse your kindness and
take advantage of you. You always try to see
the good in everyone and try not to hate.
Also, you have sharp insight and a great
personality. Calm, serene, and understanding,
you make a worthy friend and a valuble ally to
people in need. Don't change your sweet
nature, your constant being-there can save a
life. I suggest your go into a field that
centers around working with others such as a
doctor, baby-sitter, psychologist, lifeguard,
or Teacher. If none of these occupations
interest you, it is okay then. I am sure that
there are plenty of oppertunities out there for
you.
What type of teenager are you?
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Morpheus
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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You like the ones that understand you.
What kind of guy are you most attracted to? (CUTE anime pics)
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In your eyes, people see life... You see yourself
as just an average person! You enjoy life, love
wildlife, but also enjoy time with those who
know you best. You like to get outdoors and let
your mind wander over all of the mysteries god
gave to you. You don't really have a certain
sanctuary because you're so well-rounded, but
you like having fun and adventures, but can
also be found sitting quietly about, reading a
book. You have a pretty good life ahead of you,
never trade it for anything else :)
What Lies Behind Your Eyes? (With Pics, See All Results!)
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its gd to b juz average.....=) aniwae tink tis quizes r fun to take mnaz.....but i tink they r juz meant to boost egos....hahah...
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Wednesday, March 09, 2005
--s h o r t & s w e e t --
--s h o r t & s w e e t --
kaez....juz finished doing tis blogskin.....spent some time doing it....wanted to personalised one myself, but didn't noe wad style to adopt. Haf been in a identity crisis recently, kind of lose sense of what exactly do i like and what exactly do i want....so decided to use tis design.....
Kaez......recently life has been like sh*t, especially ever since i got back my lousy piece of result. Was realli down and everything, didn't haf ani sense of direction animore....dun feel like doing anitink, dun feel like thinking abt anitink. Frankly speaking, I dunno where my future lies animore or whether I haf ani...
Welll....for the moment..Im still escaping. I noe its a bad decision, but tats what I've decided at least for the moment, till I settle my emotion down. Its realli much easily said then done, but somehow tis time it realli did hit mi hard, so badly I lost control of myself . I promise tis's not gonna b for long, wiill definately try to b back to my normal self once tis transition period is over. I promise, I will.....
Nevertheless, gotta realli thank mani ppl who has been by my side all tis while, trying to gif mi advice and cheer mi up. Sorrie, for disrupting all ur emotions and making u worry....Dun worry abt mi..I noe wat to do soon....Especially people like Becky and Raymond....thanx for being there for mi these few days and trying to make sure im fine and trying to cheer mi up and stuff.....realli...without u guys arnd...bet I would still b crying until now. Also, other ppl like SiewPohand all the S3e gals, lihui, xueping, vick, weijie, liping, zhiqi, junmin, kor kor etc etc etc etc...the so mani ppl who haf been constantly asking how am I....Im fine ...dun worry....thanx a lot....
Will b bet jumping, laughing and making fun of ppl soon again I tink......dun worry...
*P.S. ---> for the last few months blogs tat I've been missing (I typed them on Microsft Words when my internet was down)...will try to put them back in here soon enough.
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Wednesday, March 09, 2005
